i am christian, and i sort of beleive there is a hell, but i have doubts... i beleive there is a god and all but if there isn't... then i will be dead so i wont be able to care then lol, but i honestly do hope there is a god

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the swarm charge outragous prices for their coords, they should lower the prices (hint* hint*)

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me to

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Hope planet 11Heavens Call has been captured by Eragon ShadeSlayre
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well after this life

- see you in hell chaos

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maybe you were embarresed about showing your emotions so you used a screen of humour ? At my nans funeral 2 years ago i didnt cry or feel upset. Me and my mum were keeping in the laughter while others were crying, but then there was someones stomach growling so loudly, the organ player sat near us behind a curtain coughing and sneezing, and i remember telling myself "your supposed to be upset". I did grieve privatly, but there was something so mechanical or play like about the service, it felt almost surreal, and i found it impossible to be emotional.

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'The power of thought, the magic of the mind'

Never argue with an idiot. They drag you down to their level and then beat you with experience.

i was the same at my grandads funeral.... just one of those things everyone deals with these things differently.... just because your way is different to other peoples doesn't make it wrong.

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The Falling Fist

I'm a Priest God never paid

Never avoid temptation, as you get older, IT will avoid you.

Same here. I can think about the person gone deeply and with very good feelings about him, but i just can't be upset or cry in the funeral. Probably just because it is a strong social pressure to look very upset, i usually try to look seriuosly and not to hurt anyone but these efforts are what makes me smile very often. Of course not to mention situations when old ladies burns their hats one after another on the same candle or when my grandmother (gone all four already) starts to spread terrible smell when her coat of natural bristle gets on fire too

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I was in one of my grandfather's funeral as well. I didn't know him well, actually almost didn't know him at all. I had that empty feeling too, didn't want to laugh or anything, but didn't feel sad either. Except it was a sad thing to see my mother crying.
There were a bunch of hired old people chanting church songs (translation?) in hoarse voices and horribly off tune whole night. Man that looked silly.
I'd prefer to be burned when I die

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it is probably because its the fact its a funeral if a loved ones dies when at the funeral you are expected to cry and this may make it even harder to do

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Wisdom is the knowledge gained through your own mind, intelligence is knowledge passed on by anothers

The Falling Fist

I'm a Priest God never paid

Never avoid temptation, as you get older, IT will avoid you.

well... i guess i'm late to say that I felt that emotion too at all the funerals I've ever been to. I think it's cuz I never got to see my father's funeral when I was 4 years old. Make that *u*k*d me up for life.

Okay, NOW I MUST GO TO WORK!

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I prefer to be burnt when i die too, Chaos

I just can't understand how the government can sacrifice the best lands in towns for graveyards, which eat more and more land every year. On the whole graveyards in Lithuania are horrible - everyone tries to build a bigger monument than its neighbour, all the graves are framed (now at least there are small frame made of stone while earlier there was high fences for every little grave) and despite many trees and beautiful sights those piles of stones are quite oppressive. I kinda like graveyards in USA (at least what i see in films) where every grave has a small stone and there is grass with trees everywhere. Here we have a real competition and not a place to remember someone. Your mission is to make as beutiful grave as you can - with plenty of flowers and other atributes. Better to grow vegetables instead

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